My emergency break glass snack bag (which I hasten to add is formed entirely of yellow sticker purchases and cashback app freebies) has taken a serious battering this past month.
The more I think about eating better and starting to get out and start running again, the more I snack. I always have my snapping point but I wish it would hurry up before I’ve eaten all the Jaffa cakes and Lindt chocolate bars!
Honestly, I’m not entirely sure what’s wrong with me. I seem to have lost my purpose in life. It may be a bit of winter slow down (which I am prone to) coupled with burn out mixed with the absolutely deflating reality of what 2022 is turning into – an energy crisis/cost of living/petrol crisis/Ukraine invasion f***fest. My brain and body have simply had enough right now.
A combination of stripping all my expenses down to the basics, attempting to keep my business alive and finding side hustles to tip the balance, is adding to the negativity surrounding 2022 as my life gets smaller and smaller, but at least it gives me some sense of control as it enables me to still make some educated guesses on my spreadsheets.
I am slowly ploughing through this year’s big bills. I’ve got through my NI payments, car insurance, tax and breakdown renewals. My car passed its MOT with no out of service package extras. My Council Tax has only gone up £35 for the coming year (equivalent to a month’s food shop) and I am hoping my water rates won’t go up in April. I have been extra careful with water this last 6 months.
In April and May, I have my home and business insurance and my 6 monthly rent payment to get through, and then I’m pretty much home and dry until the end of next January. Of course, the energy price rise has now set in, and I don’t know yet how that will affect me. I switched my boiler off mid-February and my March energy bill was only £27, so I am hoping they will look kindly on me when they review my direct debit which is next due on the 11th of this month, but I know I won’t escape a rise of some sort.
I’ve got myself stuck in a cycle and once I stop eating so much sugar and starting exercising again my mood will change which of course is likely to impact everything else. I have started making inroads into this. On sunny days I’ve started running again, and I’ve locked up my snack supply. I know how it works and how bad habits can impact one’s life both physically and mentally, and it’s often a case of making that change.
But my goodness 2022 is going to be a rough one and I am expecting no miracles as there is very little to look forward to from where I am standing at the moment.